So, a little background: I am way more religious than most people usually would guess, but also in a very particular way where I think a lot about theology and am very picky about the presentation of liturgy. I hung out with a lot of religion majors my first couple years of college and now […]
Author Archives: Zhanchi
hey check out my mixtape—
anyway since 8tracks is finally dead i guess i have to take matters into my own hands or something so I’m putting my playlists here as I can upload them (which also motivated me to shell out for digitalocean spaces to host my nextcloud shit instead because lol I’m putting a lot of stuff on […]
to no longer be exhausted
— The Undying, Anne Boyer This is about the experience of having cancer but holy shit do I feel this. Possibly nearly everyone feels this in different ways; I feel it through the lens of sleep disorder-having and existing under late-stage capitalism but goddamn
[REDACTED] from The Magnus Archives as Nightmarish Ambient Albums from my Collection
ANYWAY, SPOILERS THROUGH LIKE MID SEASON 4
I definitely got the idea to do this hair color from an old photo of Hwasa from Mamamoo, which is only slightly less embarrassing than the fact that I got my last hair color idea from an anime character Still want to do Glimmer pastel pink hair someday, though; just, like, gotta let my hair […]
a specific name for a life breaking in two
CW discussion of author’s potentially terminal illness I love the way Anne Boyer puts words together in a way that I can’t quite pin down? This is the second book this year by a woman on the topic of illness (the first being Eula Biss’s On Immunity) and I’m anticipating going two for two on […]
anyway read shame is an ocean I swim across
Like it’s uh. CW many*, so like tread with caution, but I feel like a lot of people are trying to write this book and Mary Lambert actually did? A couple of the poems fell flat for me personally but also my overall impression was very positive, if in a “I need to lie down” […]
“shame is an ocean I swim across” — Mary Lambert
I kind of wish I could send this book to my mother for reasons other than the poems presented above, but I don’t know that there will ever be a good time for it.
i will show you fear in a handful of dust
music rec but also cw: dementia, i legitimately do not recommend this if you have problems with unreality anyway i’m playing “will this give me nightmares” chicken with this album and i say this as a person who finds Gazelle Twin’s “Unflesh” to be soothing; updates to follow
I accidentally got suckered into Chinese and Korean web novels and please someone else get into Omniscient Reader’s Viewpoint so I can talk to someone about it and how punchable the main character is but somehow in a good way And also, read it for Jung Heewon, best girl