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My love/hate relationship with nisioisin’s *monogatari series goes back a long way and like, anime and light novels were a mistake, but also, how fucking dare: — Mayoi Snail, Nisioisin Dude turn on your location I just want to talk about how emotionally called out I am

2020 VBS Packages, Reviewed: Rocky Railway

So, a little background: I am way more religious than most people usually would guess, but also in a very particular way where I think a lot about theology and am very picky about the presentation of liturgy. I hung out with a lot of religion majors my first couple years of college and now […]

hey check out my mixtape—

anyway since 8tracks is finally dead i guess i have to take matters into my own hands or something so I’m putting my playlists here as I can upload them (which also motivated me to shell out for digitalocean spaces to host my nextcloud shit instead because lol I’m putting a lot of stuff on […]

to no longer be exhausted

— The Undying, Anne Boyer This is about the experience of having cancer but holy shit do I feel this. Possibly nearly everyone feels this in different ways; I feel it through the lens of sleep disorder-having and existing under late-stage capitalism but goddamn

[REDACTED] from The Magnus Archives as Nightmarish Ambient Albums from my Collection

ANYWAY, SPOILERS THROUGH LIKE MID SEASON 4

I definitely got the idea to do this hair color from an old photo of Hwasa from Mamamoo, which is only slightly less embarrassing than the fact that I got my last hair color idea from an anime character Still want to do Glimmer pastel pink hair someday, though; just, like, gotta let my hair […]

a specific name for a life breaking in two

CW discussion of author’s potentially terminal illness I love the way Anne Boyer puts words together in a way that I can’t quite pin down? This is the second book this year by a woman on the topic of illness (the first being Eula Biss’s On Immunity) and I’m anticipating going two for two on […]

anyway read shame is an ocean I swim across

Like it’s uh. CW many*, so like tread with caution, but I feel like a lot of people are trying to write this book and Mary Lambert actually did? A couple of the poems fell flat for me personally but also my overall impression was very positive, if in a “I need to lie down” […]

“shame is an ocean I swim across” — Mary Lambert

I kind of wish I could send this book to my mother for reasons other than the poems presented above, but I don’t know that there will ever be a good time for it.

i will show you fear in a handful of dust

music rec but also cw: dementia, i legitimately do not recommend this if you have problems with unreality anyway i’m playing “will this give me nightmares” chicken with this album and i say this as a person who finds Gazelle Twin’s “Unflesh” to be soothing; updates to follow